I don't know what happening to me, since Friday I have been so low. Just woke up and straight away thought of another weekend without the text, the visit and the hug. My heart broke allover again. I spent the whole day alone just remembering as many things as I could. Also the canvas I ordered finally arrived and I can't even open it yet. I'm just not ready, I hope you understand why. I watched series 6 of Brassic, and it was so sad as Dylan died. I shouldn't of watched it as Vinny reminded me of a lot of your friends in how broken he is. So Saturday I finally turned my PC on to try sort some photos for your Dad, I didn't get far before the tears flowed. So many smily photos, such happy times. I would give everything to have them back or just see your smile and hear your voice. On a brighter note, I went on the PlayStation finally, Mum said I should as you didn't get me it to sit there. I got a win, screenshotted to send you it like I always did and remembered again. Sent it anyway. Oh Thank you for the amazing sunrise the other morning, the moth that's moved into my bedroom, the endless butterflies we see, the songs you love randomly when I turn on the telly. Oh Mac Miller The spins is in Fortnite festival. Keep sending the little signs. I love and miss you more than a MGG

Hi buddy. It’s me again❤️ School holidays this week for Aaron. Got another two awards on Friday at school. Told him I’d tell uncle Ads about it all. And how proud you’d be of him for being so clever. I tell you something these weeks are flying by so quickly and i still remember it like yesterday. 3 more days till my birthday and I’m still not feeling it just yet pal. Wish you was here to celebrate with me and all the other stuff. Wish life made sense a little more if im honest with you. Anyway, I love you and miss you so much mate. Always and forever ❤️❤️❤️

Oh another day closer to another day without you. I tell you that it doesn’t get any easier, just another day of missing you 😢 Anyway, last night I went out for a few birthday drinks, took you with me ✌️ bumped into Liam, Connor and Harry! And we had a good night with you. But it wasn’t quite the same if you get my drift. Went to cav your favourite pub! Played your favourite Eminem song could just see you up there dancing 🕺 Forever will never understand why it had to be you Adam, or why it happened to us. You read about it and think it’s never be your family. And my god I hate it so much, anyway I’ll speak to you later my little bud, I love you always ❤️

Ohhhh mate. 9 weeks and it’s just flown by so quickly it’s unbelievable how fast it’s gone. But I have so much to tell you, the gossip in 9 weeks is loads! Aaron had his year 4 school photos, he’s #1 on TT Rockstars! He’s just excelling so well at school. I never thought I’d be writing to you in this sense ever. Nor did I ever imagine to myself that I’d not see you, 10 weeks since I saw you for that last time and I’m just so sorry I didn’t see you again, I’m so sorry I didn’t get that chance. But you are forever with me, whether it’s here, there or anywhere. We are bonded together for life. And it’s been the hardest 9 weeks I’ve faced in my life ever but I’ve continued to plod on with life and try make you proud of me. Next week is my birthday, and I am so disheartened and sad that you won’t be here to celebrate with me. Just isn’t gonna be the same without you mate. And I wish life was so so different and that it wasn’t like this. I will continue to write to you and tell you the thoughts and things you should know. Because you are never going to be forgotten. We love you the most and we always will. A piece of me died the day I lost my baby brother. And I will never let your name fade away. Because you was a boy who can’t ever be forgotten💙🫶💔

Today marks two months since you went into your forever sleep, 22nd’s will never be the same. and it still hurts like it was yesterday. Nothing is the same without you around, I still visit our messages and hear them exactly in your voice🥺 The voice notes bring me comfort, and I still look for you everywhere, I view your photos and videos all the time, they make me smile but Today they make me cry, 💜 You’re forever loved and I miss you so so much. I would do absolutely anything for you to come around that corner with that beaming smile of yours😞 Keep sending those signs my love. I see you ✨ “Everything will be okay in the end, and if it’s not, it’s not the end” ~ the quote you would always send me & what I always look back on🪻✨ I love you, Forever and Always Xxxxxx♾️💜💜💜💜💜

2 months ago, You were found sleeping forever, everyday since, your my first thought when I wake and last thought when I fall asleep. Life is not the same without your sparkle. Waking up knowing your not with us here is the worst. Another day without hearing your voice and laugh, seeing your huge smile that melts everyone that knows you. I have so much I want to tell you. We are all doing our best to support each other. There are lots of tears and hugs, we all talk about our memories and share thoughts. There are so many. I love hearing from your friends, they are making you so proud. So again today we will all miss you and wish you could just come back to us. A massive part of me left with you, but you left with me lots of amazing memories and love. Forever in my heart. Love you more than a MGG baby boy. Keep shining bright and sending signs. Mum xxx

Yet another sleepless night, Been thinking about you all day today. Weekends are not the same anymore without the text saying I’m on my way. Seeing your cap appear over the front bushes and your smiling face as you come down the path. I still can’t open my blinds because my path is empty and I will never see you bound down it like an excited puppy, coming to fill me in on your latest venture or just chat about all sorts of stuff. You sitting on my worktop while I make you a brew in your childhood Chelsea cup. That cup won’t get used again now. Taking my wax melts and eating my corned beef. Then before you go I get one of you amazing filled with love hugs before you leave. Bye mum, you’d say. Then always pop your head back round the front bushes and shout back MMG Mum. Never again will I hear them precious words. I wish I had known that would be the last time I hugged you as I would have held you longer and tighter and never let you leave. Love you MGG my sweet baby. Til we are together again.

Oh Adam I miss you so much I’ve cried every day knowing I won’t get to see you that day I watch the sun rise everyday and cry for you it’s so hard but I can’t wait for the day I don’t have to cry any more because that will be the day that I’ll be with you love you so much xx

So much I want to say to you, everyday I go to text you, yet another Thursday has gone by. It just a day but Thursdays will never be the same. It's the day our hearts broke and our lives were blown apart. The pain is unbearable sometimes, like I said so much to say to you but only words that matter are I miss you so much and forever MGG. Xxx

It's been 7 weeks now since you fell asleep forever. Your my first thought every morning and my last thought at night. So many times I have picked up my phone to message you something daft, every day is a struggle without you here with us. I miss and love you so so much. Sleep tight baby boy XXX MGG

Ahhhh where do I even start? Proper wish I could ask what to do with certain situations and just know what would Adam say? I don’t even know what I can say because no words can ever explain what I feel or how I even let it all out. I cry for you, I wish I could just have one more day to tell you everything I never got to say to you. But I know you always already knew. Will forever love and miss you🤍🕊️

i miss you, it’s very lonely without you, keep sending signs please, we all miss you so so much 💜💜🪻

My gorgeous boy, what can I say except Mum misses you every second. I miss our chats, laughs, hugs and even tears. I know my life will never be the same without my Adamski in it. Keep sleeping soundly baby. MGG forever

Really wish you was here today Adz, could really do with one of your chats where you tell me everything will be okay in the end 💔 x

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I am I and you are you, whatever we were to each other that we still are. Speak to me in the easy way which you always used. Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight? Life means all that it ever meant, it is the same as it ever was.